Patricia - posted on 03/09/2011 ( 8 moms have responded )
I lost my beautiful blonde green-eyed princess who was only 14 near to 15, a very lightful girl, loved by her family, friends, and her boyfriend who was only 17 at the time, and still suffers a lot.
I got deeply into depression, a profound one. Now I take medicines (antidepressants) to go to work, but I don't see any sense, in anything. No reason to live. Our pain as parents is perpetual. Her father is also too depressive. He said he just lives 'cause he can't commite suicide, because he is a Christian. But we in fact, are surviving only.People say many offensive things. She passed away on October 2009, and they think we have to overcome and stop crying. I say that only who knows this horrible loss, never stops suffering and missing. People always like to say things that they don't know, trying to comfort, in vain.
Each day is a sacrifice to go to work, put on my cothes, return home and "watch the silence." She was movement, happiness, everything. She used to tell me what happened during her day while I was cooking our dinner. We laughed, we loved each other.
One horrible day, my angel had a pain in the chest and severe fever. She had had a normal day before, went out with her boyfriend and friends.The fever got worse when she got home. When we took her to the hospital, the doctors couldn't do anything. It was a broncopneumonia, a rare one, and she passed away that day.
Our only child. And we ask: our girl, our kid, now, only in pictures and pictures, spread through the house, smiling, since she was a baby till a beautiful teenager. She couldn't become a beautiful woman, graduate, have our grandchildren. Her life was robbed. I feel this way.
And we couldn't go before her!! This is not natural!! We, her parents, are here to see the other families ' luck for having their kids, and miss our girl. I feel I'm dead. Thanks,