Chandra - posted on 07/06/2012 ( 5 moms have responded )
I am a single momma and trying hard to survive. i feel like I'm failing sometimes because i was doing so good before i got pregnant. i was even taking care of my second cousin's first child for her in every way. now i have my own baby and i no longer have my own place or a job. I'm still in school and now live with my aunt. she says i have to pay rent not and get a job but she wont help me by keeping my baby even though i keep her two kids regularly. besides the stress for her well-being and my grades I'm at a loss. i know i can do it and make it out but this shit is hard. i feel like when i leave her with my other aunt to go to class for two hours and she cries so bad I'm hurting her and failing her even more because she is so attached. but she is so bright and dances all the time and wants me to look at everything and make animal sounds with her books. i love baby with all my heart and even more so since I'm the only adopted child of my recently deceased mother and that makes her my only known blood relative. am i failing as a mother because i cant provide for her like i want in a steady way??