Nea - posted on 02/06/2010 ( 7 moms have responded )
Due to uncontrollable circumstances (hostile work environment), I am now a stay at home mom for the first time ever. And it scares me. Is that wrong? I have always been independant...able to provide for myself..and now I am completely dependant on my husband.
Took my son Justin (my 2 year old) out of daycare Tuesday...and cried my eyes out. He loved it there...all his little friends. He is ok with it...so why is it so hard for me? I feel like I am, on some level, doing him an injustice, by keeping him home with me. I am scared that I can't give him all of the "learning" skills that he had there, much less the interaction skills that he learns there.
He is thrilled to be home with Mommy. He wakes up each morning, runs to my room, and gives me a big hug, and tells me how happy he is that I am home. He reminds me daily that school is over, work is over, and he has to stay home with me. It is such an amazing feeling to be there for him. I have missed so much in his growing up, not to mention that of my 8 year old, and to be there for them right now is awsome. So why is it so scary?
Thanks for the vent. Any advise would be appreciated!!