Erin - posted on 06/10/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )
I've been really down and depressed lately because of my current situation. We've made choices in our past that lead to the way things are today, but that doesn't mean it's not frustrating! We live in a one bedroom tiny (but cute!) apartment, luckily underneath our parents apartment for now. Before we moved here, we were in a two bedroom but I still had our 1 year old in our room because Matt was working overnights and I just felt like I needed it. So she's now one, has never known anything but sleeping in the same room as us. We have a tiny apartment that limits her mobility and curiosity, and we're planning to take an extended trip to England so she can finally meet her grandparents. We're planning on having Matt go to school there, and then me go when we get back. Right now money is really tight and seem to be screaming (sometimes out loud, sometimes not lol) about where the money has gone. I know that in the end this will all become (hopefully) something of the past, but it's so hard to pull through. I'm pretty much a living bad example that's paraded in front of teens during high school. The 'this is what happens if you do this.' Unfortunately, I can't change the past and can only plan a good future. When things get as rough as they've been lately though, my mind seems to shut down and I do nothing. I'm not looking for sympathy, I know I've made my own bed, I just want to hear that someone else has been through this and pulled through. I just need to hear something positive for once. :( I'm so stressed out even my dreams have been nuts lately.