Karen - posted on 06/25/2012 ( 12 moms have responded )
I am 27 years old, have been married for 4 years and have a 13month old son. My husband and I originally wanted 2-3 children and relatively close together (he is 33). Sounded great at first, but now that my son is 13 months old and I've been a stay at home mom all this time, I'm not so sure I can handle another baby, at least not right now. However, I'm about 95% sure I'm pregnant as I am typing this. I am not due for a period for a couple more days and I am terrified to take a test. I'm not sure which answer I want to see, + or -. I'm not sure how I feel about either one, but I feel like I should be excited, and I'm not. All I keep thinking is "Oh, God, I can't handle another baby right now." I don't know how to say any of this to my husband, because he Does want another baby, the sooner the better as far as he is concerned. I just have all these doubts about my ability to handle two children. Giving them both the attention they deserve. I think I just need some reassurance from other moms who have maybe felt the way I'm feeling. By the way, the reasons I think I'm pregnant again are from a Major increase in frequency of bathroom trips (about 3 an Hour!) Nausea all day, especially if I'm hungry at all. Major fatigue, (though I did start treatment about 5 weeks ago for hypothyroidism, I've always been tired, but the treatment is supposed to fix that, not make it worse, and there are no known side effects to my medication and it is safe during pregnancy.) And I'm hungry. A lot more than normal, I find my self wanting to snack all day, but nothing really sounds good. All of these (except the nausea) I experienced with my son before I knew I was pregnant with him. I'm just so scared that I can't be a good mom to more than one child. Anyone ever felt this way? I hope I'm not the only one.