Kelly - posted on 03/27/2010 ( 5 moms have responded )
This week has been terrible for me my husband has been suffering from severe depressions for the last six months, we had gotten him into therapy at least, but getting him into a phychiatrist was hard there is a waiting list for new patient, his family doctor did prescribe him celexa and it seemed to be helping a bit. He also has stage 4 hypertension. In January he was admitted to the hospital for atrial fiblliration, irregular heart beat. He doctor said he need to stop smoking but since of the heart and blood pressure he wasn't prescribed the regualr meds to stop because they are stimulants. They tried welbutrien, immediatly I saw him spiraling out of control, begged him to stop but he insisted if it could make him stop smoking he keep taking it. I'm sure you all know what happens when you get on the wrong meds. Well he did stop but it was to late, he was self medicating by drinking heavily and even when his celaxa was uped it did no good because of his drinking. It finally came to a head this Monday morning, he looked him self in the garage and was going to kill himself. I called 911 but before the officers arrived he fired the gun. My 6 year old son was standing with me and heard it to. By some miracle he didn't shoot himself, but I just pictured him in there bleeding and dieing, and desperated for the police to arrive. They did and he heard them outside and came out, if I had not called them he had also planned to just start the generator and kill him self by carbon monioxide since he couldn't shot himself. Needless to say they took him to the hospital he was admitted to a mental hosptial but was realeased Thursday too soon for my thinknign, while there he was diagnosed bipolar. I am holding up as best I can, and have set up a appointment with my pdoc for Tuesday to most likely adjust my meds. I am also now going to start therapy again. I haven't been sleeping well and have no appetie. But I stay awake and watch over him. I am so scaried and confused and my emotions are going on a rollercoaster, Tuesday can't get here fast enough. So if everbody could just pray for me and my family it would be great.