Jessica - posted on 11/03/2008 ( 17 moms have responded )
3 years ago, i got diagnose with depression, and borderline personality disorder. i was loosing control of myself, and now i have a healthy well active child who is two and one on the way. their are days when i can't even take care of my own child let alone myself. it hard for me to get support when there is no one supportive of you. i feel all alone. i don't want my son to have the same thing and it worries me that it will because depression does run in my family.
yes i am in treatment, but it not steady like i wish it was. things around me makes me have to stop doing treatments at times. and get back on horse when i can. If i can't take care of my self how can i take care of a child. so i make the effort to get make in treatment even though there are months apart.
the other thing that really ticks me off is that my son's father also has mental health issues and refuses to seek treatment. so i don't know how to deal with him (another topic on its own) i feel like i'm a disappoint to people around me and everyone has to remind me of what i'm not doing and that i need to do this. they have to treat me as a useless child and it hurts. i don't know what to do anymore and everyday with the criticism i get the more i think about my childhood of how alone i feel and distance from everyone. i want to enjoy life with my family and not feel i'm a disappointment to them.