Amanda - posted on 01/26/2009 ( 18 moms have responded )
Every day at least once or twice or maybe even more I think of ways to just end my life. I went to my regular doctor he put me on symbrex. It was too expensive so I stopped getting it. Never went to be diagnosed. It is hard from day to day. I feel like a failure to my son all the time. I also don't want him to grow up to be like me. Sometimes I feel that he would be better off without me. Yet some days I wake up and I feel some what normal. I'm always confussed about what I want out of life. So I understand what alot of you guys are talking about here, I guess that I should go and get more help but pushing myself to do it is another story.