Jennifer - posted on 11/06/2009 ( 15 moms have responded )
I am going through a lot personally right now. Not to go into it all, but I ll give you a quick summary, both my children have ended up in Early Intervention, and my dad is back having chemo for bone cancer.
Im bipolar and have been through med changes as well. My plate is full.
But I am choosing not to let my emotions get the best of me. Hard at times Yes, but not impossible.
I choose to be happy and in the moment.
I choose to keep my self busy with my kids so that I can block out my worry.
I choose to get to bed early so that I get good rest.
Life can be so cruel, and I don't post this to mock at all.
I am just simply saying that being in the moment and living each day to its fullest helps.
I have days where I sleep a lot when the husband is home, my home is a mess most days, I take my dad to and from treatment where I see him decrease in energy and strength each time, I battle Bi polar, and I have therapists tell me each week how my children dont measure up to other children their age.
But for now at least I am staying positive, it is my choice. Im not looking into the future. Im taking each day as it comes.
I look into the mirror every morning and tell myself that I love me.
And I simply do the best I can and dont beat myself up for the rest
Thinking of all of you.
I like to share my positive as well as my dark.
May smiles sunshine and rainbows touch all of you even if it is just a fluttering moment today.