Jenny - posted on 11/11/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
My husband just lefto for his 10 month deployment and I'm 7 months pregnant. I moved back to my hometown (but I'm living by myself) to be near the small family that I have. I know it will help having family but IT'S NOT THE SAME!! I just found out yesterday that he won't be able to come back for our son's birth. He's the only one that can REALLY help me through it. I'm so scared. I'm terrified about giving birth. I cry everyday because he's not here. I will even cry at the grocery store. I have 2 dogs - a calm, sometimes ill Dachshund and a 2 year old Lab whose so active. I hardly have the energy to play with her as much as she needs. I'm just a mess. I'm trying to stay calm for our unborn son and for my dogs who can sense emotions but I just can't get to that strong point. Other military wives seem to be doing so much better. My biggest fear is seeing another soldier at my front door with bad news. I'm TERRIFIED of that. How do I get through this? I'm not working and won't be after the baby comes. I know that it's good to stay busy but don't know what to do. I seriously cry when someone asks how I'm doing or just the sight of his favorite cereal in the grocery!! How will I handle myself once the baby comes?? Any words of wisdom, tips, and advice are appreciated. Thank you.