Krystle - posted on 09/15/2010 ( 8 moms have responded )
I'm trying so hard to be understanding and to be there for my bf through this whole ordeal....he is having to go through depression meds and anxiety meds....he's on Siezure meds too.... on top of everything he also has ADD and ADHD. The poor guy is going through so much right now. But For those of you out there who don't know what it's like to live with someone who is depressed and who has anxiety, ADD, and ADHD....let me tell ya, it can be HELL. It's not his fault, and I know this. But I can only be so understanding to something I really DON'T understand at all. I love him so much! It just breaks my heart to know that there's nothing I can do for him except try to be there for him when he needs me. The thing about all these illnesses is that they each effect the other with great significance. Research shows that each one has a high chance of making the symptoms of one or all of the others worse. We fight a lot. My mom doesn't like him b/c she doesn't understand him...she's never said so, but I think she thinks he's a dead-beat. I've never tried to explain any of this to her b/c she's stubborn and set in her ways of thinking. Someone like her could never understand what it means to have all these mental problems. She doesn't even believe that ADHD is a real mental illness! She thinks it's something that doctors came up with to pass the blame off of the parents who don't know how to control their kids. She thinks that they came up with it so they could invent a medicine (like Ritalin) to halfway sedate out-of-control kids. Seriously. That's really what she thinks...and I'm in no way exagerating. Honestly, that's what I grew up thinking, too. I know better now...I've done a great deal of research on it, it's real. And it's a BITCH (excuse the language) to deal with, whether you're the one with the illness or the one living with the one with the illness.
So anyway...I have to admit that there have been plenty of times when I was ready to throw in the towel. Even as I think if it now, I almost feel like giving up. But I stay with him b/c I love him and I feel like it would make me a horrible person if I just gave up in him now. After all we've been through. It's like these whole 5 years we've been together and everything we've overcome will have all gone to waste if I give up now. Sometimes I really feel like I just can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do...after dealing with it and trying to help with no avail, I'm at a complete loss. I don't want to give up but my patience is long gone and I'm afraid that is our situation doesn't get better soon then I might have to let it fall apart. I can only hold on so tight for so long..........I love him, but I don't want to end up driving myself crazy in the process of trying to keep him from doing the same. I worry that it's a struggle I can't win.