Karen - posted on 07/30/2011 ( 3 moms have responded )
Its time for me to get some help. I am a single mom of 8 year old triplets. I am so lonley that my heart aches into my soul. Its so not fair because i am a good person, im kind, im strong but why did i end up alone
After being together with my husband for (dating n married) for 8 years, WE decided to try to have a baby. I couldnt get pregnant on my own but was successful on the first try getting thru a fertility clinic but with triplets. I am a smalll person and my kidsl were born very early. Life chamged completely. After 5 months (bed rest, NICU and special care nursery) they were home and for the most part healthy. From here i looked after all their needs mostly on my own - physical, medical, emotional, educational needs etc. It was too much for my only child husband to handle. I also have a successful career and after a year went back to work and had to juggle nannies too. Needless to say i was exhausted. My hubsand resented the changes rebelled and escaped. First to his job, gym, then came drugs,'alcohol, then other women. His way of dealing with kids was to yell. I protected my kids and yelled back. Our marriage ended and my inlaws blamed me. My husband or his parents did not understand that i was completey exhausted and for the baby and toddler years focused on doing my best for my kids and to just survive. By the time it started to get easier, 6 years old and in school full time, my marriage was over and my husband gave up and found another woman to meet his needs - attention and sex.
Today i am sitting in my own beautiful home all alone. My kida are almost 9 and are on vacation at their cottage with now xhusband, his parents and girlfriend. My heart aches into my soul because i am alone. I have primary custody but we share custody in the summer. I have always put my kids first, their happiness is so important. I know i am better off without my X as he showed his true colors during the "for better or worse" days but its so not fair that he ended up with a happy family and i sit here alone.
As i said im a good person, an optimist, i have a great kids because if my strength n hard work, a great career in medicine, a beautiful home. Its just so not fair. I knowmGod has a plan for me, i have joined a professional dating ompany, support groups, try to spend time with friends, give back in life for my blessings etc etc etc. BUT i ache in my heart from being alone. I pray for someone to love me again but its oftem seems impossible. Im 43 year old single mom with triplets. That scares alot of men away. I have so much love to give. Moms, how do you make it through each day alone and lonley? Help me cope please, i beg of you.
To you single moms, i send my hugs to you.