Hey everyone!!

Sara - posted on 02/26/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )

Okay here goes...when I was 17 I had met this guy through a friend at the time. He seemed really awesome then too. We lived in 2 diffrent states so he would come see me on the weelends and sometimes take off work and come drive down. Well I noticed that he seemed way more upset to have to leave and go home then me and anyone I had ever dated. Before him I was in a serious relationship with a guy for 2 1/2 years and he was never like that. We were young and stupid and "in love". Well I was so stupid that we got engaged and when I turned 18 I dropped out of high school and moved in with him and his grandma. He was in and out of diffrent jobs and of course I was relying on him to take care of me. And to make matters worse I was pregnant. I started to notice that he was getting a little too overprotective of me. I couldnt even call my mom without it starting an argument between him and I. I couldnt even lock the door when I went to the bathroom. One day I was upset so I went in the bathroom to call my mom and tried to lock the door. He grabbed my wrist and hurt it a little bit. From that day I knew things would only get worse. While we lived with his grandmother he pretty mmuch just stuck to talking to me like I was dirt and treating me like dirt and every now and then pushing me. He made my self esteem and my self worth just go out of the window. I though I was fat and ugly and worth nothing and stupid. And I have been dealing with depression for a while so he wasnt helping any of that. A couple months before my first daughter was born we moved into our own apartment. Things were kind of the same except for the talking down to me got worse. Shortly after he turned 21 things went waaayyyy down hill. He started to go out and drink all the time and the arguing got worse and so did the abuse. He would start to hit me and push me down. He would tell me I was ugly fat a slut you name it he said it. When we were bathing our daughter when she was about 3 months old he purposly elbowed me in my throat pretty hard. I called the cops and he was arrested. Boy I knew i was in for it when he got out but suprisingly he only yelled at me. Well a few months after that he started to just go on these rages were he would start punching me a bunch of times in the same spot and then all over..pushing me down and kicking me. He would throw things at me and one night seriously hurt my elbow. Well I guess I wasnt enough and he started to hurt my daughter. He had hit her a few times and hurt her legs and put his hand over her mouth as she was screaming. It got to the point where he would pour water in her face so she couldnt breath. I feel like the worlds worst mom for letting that happen to her. He had tried to spray me with mace, stab me, and had threatnd to shoot me several times when he had his gun. One day I woke up and left his sorry butt. I have been seperated from him for almost 2 years now. I get kind of anxious around guys when they get angry because im scared of what they might do. My oldest daughter is 2 now and she just got to where she can be around most guys without being scared.