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Adrienne - posted on 04/04/2011

Thanks for creating this group Melissa! I am a lifelong member of AlAnon/ACA . I take what works and leave the rest, add some things that I know have worked for me and put them up on my site www.12stepsthinkaboutit.org please take a look. Inspirational photo's excerpts from daily readers and some days it will be excerpts from other things I have found to help me to understand the concepts in an other way! So Glad you started this group. It is so needed. We live in a dis--eased world everyone can benefit! Peace Light and Love!
Adrienne

Melody - posted on 03/16/2010

Hi guys I just want to say how nice is to know there are woman out there that I can relate to. Now that I'm clean and an 'active citizen' I feel like I'm walking around with this big dark secret that I am a mom in recovery and I spent half my life high. I always feel like "wow if people knew the truth...." On the other hand, it sets us part from the rest, we have some real life experience that we can use to help our selves and each other.

Kelsey - posted on 03/09/2010

Hi, I'm Kelsey. I just gave birth to my first child 5 weeks ago. She is the most amazing thing! I'm 24 and a Navy wife living in a new state, knowing only my husband. I have one year and 8 months clean. I spent almost 4 years of my life in haze because of drugs. I got clean through my church and the Faith I have in God. I met my husband after I got clean and although he knows about my past, I still feel alone in my struggle to stay clean everyday. Its also a big blow to not be able to be close to my mother with just having a new baby. I'm not sure if its postpartum or what. But the lack of sleep, feeling lonely, stress of a being a new parent... etc etc is all weighing in on me right now. I tore while giving birth and I was prescribed pain killers, I had no problems with them. But now that all family is gone and its just my husband and I. And myself alone with the baby all day basicially... im just stressed. I feel the need to use so I can make it through the day... or so I can sleep... or a panic attack wont hit... or to finish laundry... you know all the excuses we use to use. I even had a bought of Mastitis a week ago and the pain was so horrible, I was at a breaking point. I don't know anyone up here or anything so the possibility of using is extremely low, but the want to use is just bearing down on my Soul right now. I haven't been able to go to church as well for a while and I think thats a big part of my addiction creeping back into my head. I know its always going to be there, but its knocking at the door harder because of all the stress of a whole new life. I'm managing fine with this and I'm not worried about going out and using, I just don't like the way I feel with everything and the little thoughts that slip in every now and then when things are stressful. I havent mentioned my current struggle to my husband and I feel alone with this. I need support. Thanks for letting me share.

Melissa - posted on 02/14/2010

Jessica thank you for sharing that. if u dont mind me asking what was your drug of choice? do u go to meetings? its hard being alone taking care of children and with one on the way trying to stay clean. do you have any help. your situation is tough and give yourself alot od credit for staying clean and trying for your children. they are lucky to have a mom like you. be proud of yourself and yes times are gonna be tough but you can get throught it. please contact me anytime if you want someone to talk to or are really struggling. my email is meloopie@optonline.net if you would like to chat privately. hang in there and please feel free to email me anytime

Jessica - posted on 02/13/2010

Hi Im jessica mother of two little girls and another baby on the way well my story is this before i got pregnant with my first i was into drugs really badly and as soon as i found out i quiet cold turkey then after she was born i stayed clean got pregnant with baby number 2 then after she was born i didnt stay clean my fiancee found out and got me help asap so here i am 4 months pregnant been clean for 7 months now but the hardest part is admitting i still think about doing it and my fiancee is in prison now so i really need support to stay clean Thank you for listening