Kaleigh - posted on 01/27/2009 ( 70 moms have responded )
I'm in an upgrading class right now, already got the ok to apply for next september and heres the dilemma. I missed time when my lil one got pnuemonia, and then more when I got sick. After that its been really difficult to manage everything I'm still running around to doctor appointments and failing miserably to keep my house in order. So I am now on a two week trial period so I don't lose my child care subsidy because I've been having trouble getting to school ontime and without that, it's bye bye school. I've been ontime the last two days but at a price, my to-do list is piling up with no potential of even being glanced at, playtime has been almost completely cut because by the time we get home finish supper have a bath its bedtime, and despite the extra sleep I'm just feeling so run down and frazzled. I want to finish school but I don't want my sons life to be a constant series of rushed tasks by an exhausted mother and even if I get through the next two weeks, the next 5 months, and the next 3 years of school I'm scared this is how it will be and if it's just going to get worse I dont know how it can work. I'm a single mom and I'm trying to do my best but next to all the other single moms I know, I give the job title a bad name. I don't know what I'm doing wrong or not doing that I should be but if anyone has any advice or empathy I could really use it.