Karron - posted on 06/17/2009 ( 10 moms have responded )
Hello to all of you,
I want to ask how many of you out there are like me? Over 40 or near it, back in college (or for the first time) and struggling to get their older brains to learn subjects we haven't had in many, many years, which is exhausting and frustrating.
I had my children at 20, 25 & 29 years of age and was primarily a stay home mom for approx.15 years with little league, soccer, tae-kwon-do, football, jr. drill team and 7 yrs of swim team; whew! You name it they did it and I shuttled them around. Now they are all working and one in college. I just finished my first class which was a remedial math class and I signed up for the next math in the first summer session. By the second week and 2 hours of class every day, 1 hour of tutoring and 5- hours of homework a day I had to drop it. I was falling to far behind and my tutor (hooray for free tutoring from the math dept.) who is also a math professor said this class is 2 years of algebra crammed into 6 weeks :0! No wonder I was so behind. I honestly had no idea is was so much info. I desperately wanted to get through with this class this summer, especially since it is a pre-req for all 3 of my biology classes, the first of which I was supposed to take in the fall. It was very upsetting for me to accept the fact that I needed to take the math over a long semester in the fall and drop it. I feel as though I am already so far behind at 44 and that I have to run as fast as I can to try and catch up. I am attending community college here in Houston and you can only apply to the RN program once a year 5 months before the program begins, so I will be 45 almost 46 when I apply. I try so hard to stay upbeat and perky but it is depressing to realize that I will be almost 50 when I am finished. I don't know why that bothers me, especially when I meet women that age all the time going back to school and I think it is simply wonderful! Why is it I have a difficult time applying that attitude to myself? I hope no one construes this as whining. I don't want it to seem that way at all. I would love to be in contact with other gals such as myself to vent, support each other and so on. Please reply to this post I would love to hear from you all