Laurie - posted on 04/18/2009 ( no moms have responded yet )
There are so many things that moms with chronic illness deal with that healthy moms do not. It is so easy to get frustrated because of doctors, treatments, finances, pain, and the list goes on. So many things are out of our control. Actually, there is nothing wrong with being angry. Many times our anger is justifiable and normal. Sometimes to NOT be angry about something would be unusual and cause for even more concern. But if we let it, our frustration and anger can take hold and cause us even more problems. Anger can run deep and turn into a "chronically" angry spirit where bitterness becomes the norm. Anger can also cause us more stress and more physical pain and problems. Anger can lead us to do things that may be hurtful to ourselves and others. It is a hard thing to deal with when we have so many things causing us frustration and pain. The Bible says, "in your anger, sin not." So what do we do then with our anger? That is a valid question. The anger itself is not the problem; what we do with it is the problem. I was just reminded today that in order not to let anger and bitterness take over, I have to run to God whenever I experience situations causing me frustration and anger. I need to just let it all out before God. There needs to be an emotional release in order for the anger to not turn into bitterness. It is so easy to let our anger run free. It seems second nature for me to stuff it so far down that I don't even realize it's there. The only way to freedom is to offer that frustration and pain up to God. He's big enough to handle our anger, and He wants us to come to Him with our emotional pain. As we do that, God can bring healing to our souls. It is not a one time thing, though. We need to run to Him each and every time we feel the frustration and anger rise to the surface. Then God will help us become better instead of bitter. Our spirits can be free, and we might even be able to help others become free, too.