Rochelle - posted on 04/27/2009 ( 6 moms have responded )
my name is rochelle i have 3 children shawn is 9 meryah is 5 and ethan will be 4 in june. meryah and ethans dad died in a car accident nov 2nd 2009. he had custody at the time of the accident. custody was then given to me as surviving parent law. i have been having a very hard time dealing with his death due to the fact that my children are so young and they dont understand that daddy is not coming back. i miss him so much although we havent been together for at least 3 years now but i still loved him. he was abusive at times but at other times the funniest and funnest person you could have ever met. i find myself thinking that he is going to show up at my door soon and its all gonna be a dream. and it feels like its real like as if he didnt die and then i have to mentally tell myself no he died its weird and am wondering if anyone else thinks like that still and if that ever stops. i am not sure how to deal with wat to tell my kids wen they ask about him and wen they say they wanna see their daddy. it breaks my heart to even think that he is not gonna be there for them growing up. if anyone has any advice please let me know i could really use it.