Kimberly - posted on 06/16/2011 ( 4 moms have responded )
I'm sitting here AGAIN in my bathrobe that even "pig pen" would refuse! I need to get up from this keyboard and start packing boxes for our supposed "exciting" move for my husbands job to a whole new state. We're moving in 2 wk's & I have NOT packed one thing but EVERYDAY I pinky swear to get a whole rm done and another day goes by untouched. I spiral more in to shame & silence from all who surround me with their "happy for me" voices.Our ddr graduated with high honors was accepted into N.Y.U. and of course there is NO who is prouder of her than me. There is also no ONE more shocked @ this deep depression that has set in like a cement blanket.So I am trying in the sincerest way to "buck up" and accept she's leaving across country for 4 years and I won't wake up to her beautiful face anymore. And I'm moving out of Ca from our families where I've lived my entire life to a whole to state, Scottsdale, Az. where there's this new chapter of life I'm stepping in to. I'm sure to MOST of you are thinking "wow we should all have it so bad, what an ungrateful, whiny"... Oh believe me no one can say anything close to what I tell myself everyday to "snap out of it". I am just hoping, no praying someone will tell there's not something wrong with me or maybe there is but there are things I can do to crawl out of this. I NEED to function! I WANT to celebrate my ddr and this new chapter that's ahead for my husband and I so if writing some words out that may or may not make sense leads to some hope ~ Thank you!