Lani - posted on 01/06/2009 ( 24 moms have responded )
Looking back, i get so mad when i think about the fact that there were 47 preemies in the hospital and I was put in a room with a full term mother. My early delivery was unexpected and still to this day unexplainable by my doctors. I just woke up in labor at 27 weeks 4 days. I delivered the next day and was put in a vacant room with an extra empty bed and posters all over the room that told me how to "protect my baby" with breast milk and to "be a good mother" and breast feed. That night another mother joined me along with her HUGE hispanic family with flowers balloons and happy conversation. I soon cried continuously and became depressed. the doctor wouldn't let me out of bed with a demorol drip, I hadn't seen my baby, my medication prevented me from expressing milk to give to my daughter(that hadn't even begun to come in) and I had a 2lb 8 oz baby. I was miserable and the nurses kept asking me why i was crying because everything was FINE!! Yeah right!! Not from my standpoint at that time.
The one thing that saved my sanity was my OBGYN. She had 7 year old twins that were preemies and she really knew what I was going through. The best advice she told me was that the worst day of my life was when i would go home without my baby and that it was going to SUCK! She said to go home, lock myself in my room and cry my eyes out. when I was done, get the car keys and drive myself back to the hospital and take control back. She was right. I felt more in control with every mile i drove back. She said the exact thing I needed and she was the best doctor I could've ever had.