Tasha - posted on 03/16/2010 ( 32 moms have responded )
I never thought that this could happen to me... but i had it in the back of my mind only because .. I was born 2 months early.. and just 2 years ago my whole family went through this same thing with my cousin who had her little girl 2 months early as well... My son was born 2 months early.. they were worried mostly about his lungs being developed ... I hated it when after he was born they rushed him out of the room... not getting to hear his cry or getting to hold him or kiss him.. broke my heart.. then before they took him to Riley hospital in Indianapolis Indiana... he was hooked up to all these machines and I couldnt hold him or kiss him... I got to touch his little hand before they had to get him to the other hospital.... then my husband went with them as so did my mom... I had to stay at the hospital... and just wonder what was going on with my son... why did this happen to me... why did they just take him away like that... I just wanted to kiss his little head and hold him... I was lucky enough to be discharged that night from the hospital so my dad drove me up to Indianapolis... as soon as I got there my husband took me back to the modual he was in at the NICU..... as soon as i saw him i broke down ... seeing him hooked up to all those machines and the c-pap machine.. and feeding tube.. very hard to see your newborn baby that way ... the whole stay was very hard for me because ... I had him in October of 2009 when the H1N1 was getting bad.. so only my husband and I were aloud back to the NICU to see our son... So my husband had to return back to work that next week and we lived an hour and a half away from Riley.. so he only was able to come up on weekends.. I always had some one that would stay with me at the Ronald McDonald house but it was hard being back there alone.. no one to talk to about anything but I did love it when i got to hold my son for the first time... and getting to bond with him was amazing... I wouldnt trade that feeling for anything in the world ... He advanced very well and only had one set back the whole time he was in the NICU ... but seeing other babies and their parents getting ready to go home kind of got me a little depressed but I knew when god said it was time for him to come home it would be the right time ... He was in the NICU for 2 months and was able to come home.. He is now a happy and healthy baby at 4 months old... Not a day goes by that i dont thank god that he gave me this angel baby and took great care of him to make sure he was safe .. and helped to keep me strong for my little boy and be his rock ... and have him know that his mommy was there every single day by his bed side.... just watching him sleep .. and grow .. and get healtheir as the days went by.. I love my son more than life its self and would do anything for him. having a premie is one of the hardest things I think i will ever have to go through in life! I had to vent and get my story out ... Not a lot of people i know understand really what its like to have a premie baby ... !