Annabelle - posted on 04/16/2010 ( 1 mom has responded )
Hi everyone, firstly what a great site.
I have had 5 children, all Perms and have always had to leave them in hospital when I was discharged. My delivery dates range from 3 weeks, 6 weeks and my last 3 children at 28 weeks. I lost one of my twin girls (Gemma) 3 days after she was born and I still struggle with the joy of having Phoebe and the loss of Gemma. Sam, my last child, was also born at 28 weeks and I feel so blessed that we had our final miracle baby. My family is now complete.
I just wanted to say to everyone that have so many mixed feelings, from joy (everything went o.k), grief (it didn't), anger (my plans of a nice calm pregnancy and birth didn't happen), I could list them all, to just hang in there. You will get lots of advice on how you should be feeling but only you know what you feel. I still allow myself to have those bad days, when I hide under the dooner and don't answer the phone. But by allowing myself to have those down days, they go away more quickly and I can get on with enjoying my other children more. Take Care Annabelle