Breanne - posted on 03/04/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
My son was 7 weeks prem. Labour was unexpected and very unforgetting, not to mention it was 3 hours away from my home. My son and I both almost died and I would never like to relive that moment again. However I feel cheated and I really regret the way I was when my son was in the hospital and if he were there again I'd do it differently. I had a c-section which I was totally against but it was for the safety of my son and myself. I just feel I was robbed of the birth experience. They drugged me against my will so I missed my son coming out of my belly. I didn't get to see him until he was in an incubator with tubes all over. I guess it took 45 mins to get him going but I really didn't feel like I had a baby and when I held him, I felt more like a babysitter than a mom. (but loved him like a mom)
I regret not staying at the hospital more too. I would visit him whenever I could (we lived out of hotels and PMQ's and drove 45mins there and back to visit) and I pumped for him religiously every 3 hours. I went to visit him and held him when I was allowed but I wish I stayed there longer when he needed me the most, he was preemie and I thought leaving him to sleep was good, like the nurses said but my heart said stay. I wished i listened to myself. My husband and the nurses always encouraged me to go and "let him sleep" but I wish I was there. I always wonder if he wondered where I was, if he knew I was mom when nurses were with him all night and different people held him. I wonder if his first month of life in the hospital shapped him to be who he is today.
How was your hospital experience? Anything you'd do differently? Did you get the whole experience or do you feel like you're missing something>?