my little very little girl - 12 weeks early

Brooke - posted on 02/28/2009 ( 5 moms have responded )

i was due jan 1st..a new years baby i thught.... turns out i was wrong. thanksgiving monday i got these tight feelings in my lower body .... ( on a 4h drive home from my cottage) when i got home i rushed to my hospital.. i just knew something was wrong.. they told me i was having braxton hick and i should go home and rest .. but i didn't i went straight to the hospital in the next town. they also told me i was having braxton hick and to go home... i did.. but the i still felt that something was wrong so i went back .. demanding that they check my cervix .. so they did.. to their suprize i was 3 cm dialated.. i was rushed to a hospital in a couple towns over... the next 2 days were hell.... a membrain on my cevix broke so i started bleeding.. at the time doctors didnt know why.. so i was preped in case of emergency c-secton and had to go for a emergency ultra sound.. it was the scariest thing in my life.. my ultra sound tech scared me for now reson ..( i was geting my ultra sound done and she called in about 5 others to see what a weird looking thing was on my placenta the worst part was that they were talking all about it right infront of me.. sayingit could be a rip or just nothing at all... which it was nothing thank god !!!! finally my contractions stoped so they decided to send me home on bed rest.... that morning at 8 30am they came in my room to check me... i was 8 cm dialated! i thought the worst .. i was soo scared i have never heard of that early of premmies ( which i know now its not that bad) i gave birth to my amazing baby girl at 2 45 pm.... she weighted 2Lbs 10oz which is a really nice weight for 12 weeks early... i'll never froget that moment she came out she couldn't breath so there was no noise from her but her eyes were wide open and she glanced my way as they rushed her into the other room.... i got to see her just 445 mins after giving birth to her.. thank goddness i didnt get a epi so i could walk there and stand bside her incubator. she was amazing. i didnt get to hang onto her for over a week and when i did it was for 2 mins as the nurses sitched her beding.. it was the best 2 mins of my life..... she did amazing in the hospital (ventolated for 1 day , on oxygen for a week. had a large heart.. to large but all better now.. got e-coil menagitous. but again all gone) the thing is she was in the hospital for 63 days.... and i was there for at least 6-10 hours a day (lived a hour away but made i there every day but 2 snow storm and got mastidos) i meet teh most amazingest( not a real word i know) people there.. i met a couple of momswho had babies at 24 weeks a yes there was hard time but they are now huge and fine and amazing. i met people who wen through the same thing , some had a easier time some had harder time but they were amazing. i know have a geat friend who's baby was in the hospital for 211 days and now is home..just amazing what they can do now. the last week that sophie was there i was in care by parent ( where you stay with your little one in a room that has a curtain for a door.. and there was 2 other familys there one was a lady tat i spent 57 days with because our little girls were always beside eachother.. born six days apart went home 6 days apart .. and the other family w met 6 days before they had twins.. the cutes boy girl twins ever :).. one night we asked the nurse if she could watch the babies for 45 mins so we could have one last meal togther.. the nurses said it was a great idea and that no other family has dont that before... so if you have a premie .. i know its hard in the NICU but everyone around you is feeling pretty much that same.. they can help you and you can help them.. and if you know ur going to be in there awhile get to know some of the families it makes it easier even when u cant make it .. to know that some other caring parent is also looking out for ur little one... i put pretty much half of the nicu moms on my vistor list so that if i wasnt there at least they could say hi and comfort sophie.. and its amazing all of us still keep in touch we talk almost everyday.