Rachel - posted on 01/05/2010 ( 121 moms have responded )
because i know the thought may be in the back of their minds. But i need to give a voice to this horrible feeling i have inside. My 15 r old daughter is making some decisions that may very well cost her her life. And i find myself chasing away intrusive thoughts about how im gonna handle losing her. I lost my mom when i was two....she was raped, beaten, murdered and left in a field while walking home from a party. So that fear is soo ingrained in me from the start of my life. And as a teen, i put myself in way too many situations where i could have ended up just like my mom. Now i watch my daughter doing the same stupid shit and i find myself dealing with the ridiculous thoughts of what im gonna do if she never comes home one of these times. Its like watching a car crash in slow motion and not being able to stop it.