Jennifer - posted on 07/14/2012 ( 6 moms have responded )
I had a difficult difficult divorce many years ago..me daughter stayed with me and visited her dad at weekends etc..when she became older and I got worried about her not having such a good social life so I mentioned to my x that maybe we would try 50/50. He liked the idea cause it ment he wouldn't have to pay money for her..we tried it and she didn't like it ..big fight and she ended back with me.and me and the x are going through a custody battle now ..she is happy with me ..but she's adopted his attitude and arrogance...I struggle with it .and worry that ive started to dislike my child who I love so much ..because she reminds me to much of her dad who is cruel and manipulative....I need advice ..has love turned to hate.? Ive became so I'll and helpless that Its made me bitter with frustration ..because I have to fight with my kid now cause she has become her dad and I can't and I won't accept it ,,,help me see reason again ..please ...
I know right now I'm being a bad mom ...and it's tearing me apart ...I've failed my child by being making a mistake and I can't forgive myself for putting her through this situation ,,that I think I'm pushing her away ..she's become clingy and over demanding and it's suffocating at times...I'm scared to attach my self in case I loose her again.