Amy - posted on 07/08/2012 ( 1 mom has responded )
Hello, I am a mom of a 13 year old boy so I guess you can say I am newbie to the teen years but honestly I think it starts at 12, It has always been me and my son for all his life, His dad was in his life very little and my son only remembers him a little, its tuff being a single mom, his dad and I almost got married when our son was 3 but i caught him doing crack in my car at midnight a month before our wedding and kicked his butt out that night, did not even give him the chance to come in the house and grab his stuff. well when my son turned 5 we moved to KY and have been here ever since but two months after my son turned 6 his dad passed away, his family say heart attack but I know the real reason. they have even admittied it to me but then changed thier minds.
it breaks my heart and now I start to second guess myself what if I have done things diffrent maybe my sons dad would still be here, my son would have his dad. I feel sad and blame myself Because he has never know what its like to have a father in his life a dad that spends time with him and teaches him stuff. hear I am trying to be both and I feel I am a faliure as a mom little loan a dad, I want to set bounderies, and rules but still give him his freedom. I let him go to bed at 10:00 pm and I wake him up at 5:00 am for school. I try to tell him that room needs to be cleaned before he watches tv and plays video games and most times goes in one ear and out the other, most people tell me do not take his games or things away cause it won't work you need to just talk and work it out but talking is like talking to a wall it goes in but theres a block. He say's I nagg to much well I tell him if you do what I ask you in the first place I would not nagg, one time he told me he wished I was dead and not his dad talk about stabing my heart. I just do not know what to do anymore. I love him with all my heart but he is becoming so lazy what do I do he wants me to do everything for him and most times I do Because its easyier then dealing with the arguing and fighting because we live with my parents and then they get on my case about yelling at him and being tough on him. thier ones to talk when they were much more worse then I am, trying so hard not to be like them.