Tammy Cara - posted on 09/02/2009 ( 10 moms have responded )
I've just returned to work after my maternity leave and am finding it really challenging.I leave for work at 6:30 in the morning and return at about 4 in the afternoon to get handed my tired clingy 3- month old.At school we are in the middle of testing time so the level of stress is high, my students (13-16 year old boys ) are at their most trying and I'm spending all my breaks in a bathroom stall expressing milk for my daughter.When I get home I just want a couple of minutes peace before dealing with the next thing - and feel so guilty because the next thing is playing with my daughter who I adore.I feel like I'm unable to regain my footing with school lesson and topic scheduling, ect. because I'm huddled on a toilet all break not planning and talking to my colleagues and I don't wait to stay late for the extra small group lessons that my boys want .At home I feel like I only get such a short time with my baby before she goes to sleep - and during that time I 'm tired and have to make dinner ect.so I'm hardly giving her the best of me.What do I do to prevent myself from becoming the worst teacher and mother ever???!!!???( p.s -I'm thinking of going to bed just after my daughter and waking up at 4 in the morning to a have a chance to spend some quality time with her and saving extra marking ect. that takes up my time for weekends .What do you think?