I'm REALLY struggling with depression... HELP!!!

Amber - posted on 07/14/2009

I would suggest seeing a doctor right away! I have tried several medications since my son was born five years ago and my daughter almost four years ago. Now I am on Celexa and it helps a lot. Everyone is different and responds different to medications. Counseling for a long time really helped too. I used effexor and it never really worked for me. I would try something else and some counseling. Its really hard to take it on by yourself, but if you ever need to chat you have support on here. Good luck to you

Kathy - posted on 06/11/2009

I understand what you are going thru. I am going thru the same thing, and my children are 8 years and 15 months. I have struggling with this since my daughter was born. I thought it would get better on its own, but its not. I am on high doses of sertraline and I also go see a therapist every week. It does help to have someone to talk to. The only people I can open up to about how I'm feeling is my one cousin and my therapist. If you need to talk, let me know.

Carolyn - posted on 05/24/2009

I was never diagnosed, because I never told anyone. I KNOW it was ppd. My son was 9 months old before the clouds lifted. I didn't start to enjoy him until then. He just seemed like a pain. Work. Hard work, and I didn't want to do it everyday. My husband worked out of town and I was terrified when he left - like 'you can't possibly leave me with this baby'. I never wanted to 'kill him'. I just wanted him to shut up. Or maybe leave him in his crib so I could go to the corner store for a few needed items without having to wake him, pack up, etc. Take a bath for heaven's sake. Or just go to the bathroom without being in a hurry. One part of my brain knew it made sense NOT to - to put him first, but the other still wanted to abandon it all and just drive away for a while. I WISH TERRIBLY that I had gotten help. That I had told my husband. I did tell him several years later and he was so sad that I hadn't. He wanted to help even then. He wasn't disgusted by my telling him how I felt, or what I thought. I grieved for the experience I DIDN'T have with my newborn. I'm terribly lucky to have made it out, but scarred. Seek a good doctor - not just for medication, but to talk with. U R ok. U can and will be ok with help - from them, and your husband. The sun just starts to shine one day a little at a time. My son is 7 now, and the best thing that's ever happened to me. But, I've only healed through help. I'm here if you ever need.....

Carolyn - posted on 05/24/2009

I was never diagnosed, because I never told anyone. I KNOW it was ppd. My son was 9 months old before the clouds lifted. I didn't start to enjoy him until then. He just seemed like a pain. Work. Hard work, and I didn't want to do it everyday. My husband worked out of town and I was terrified when he left - like 'you can't possibly leave me with this baby'. I never wanted to 'kill him'. I just wanted him to shut up. Or maybe leave him in his crib so I could go to the corner store for a few needed items without having to wake him, pack up, etc. Take a bath for heaven's sake. Or just go to the bathroom without being in a hurry. One part of my brain knew it made sense NOT to - to put him first, but the other still wanted to abandon it all and just drive away for a while. I WISH TERRIBLY that I had gotten help. That I had told my husband. I did tell him several years later and he was so sad that I hadn't. He wanted to help even then. He wasn't disgusted by my telling him how I felt, or what I thought. I grieved for the experience I DIDN'T have with my newborn. I'm terribly lucky to have made it out, but scarred. Seek a good doctor - not just for medication, but to talk with. U R ok. U can and will be ok with help - from them, and your husband. The sun just starts to shine one day a little at a time. My son is 7 now, and the best thing that's ever happened to me. But, I've only healed through help. I'm here if you ever need.....

Rosie - posted on 05/23/2009

Hi There Erinn! I've been wondering lately if I have PPD, but I'm not sure. I was online reading about PPD, and I match so many of the normal daignosis but I honestly don't feel like "killing my baby" as how I've read or have heard about. Actually, sometimes I feel like strangeling my 3-yr old, but of course I don't. He just drives me nuts. Its hard to keep him entertained during the day. I lost my job in February (even though I volunteerd to be home with my kids) and I'm at home now with them ALL day, and I don't think I'm a very good mom and caregiver. I've been wanting to talk to my doctor about it. I'm sorry to hear that your friend moved so far. I would feel awful too. I guess I feel lucky now to be able to talk to my husband, and I've become good friends with a neighbor of mine but I'm still really lonely during the day. Our kids are so close in age, where are you from?

Carie - posted on 05/23/2009

6 months doesn't mean you won't have ppd. It didn't hit me until my first baby was past his first bday. I wasn't on any drugs so I can't offer advice on what else to take, switch to etc. I went to a naturalpathic doctor. I had b12 shots, took bilingual b vitamins and Sam-E and prentals and it took some counseling on top to start to feel better. I wish you could tell your husband a bit about how you feel, it would help you and him- he loves you,i bet he would want to help with something anything to make it easier better for you, on you. Prayers your way, keep working at it, life is worth it.