Jennifer - posted on 07/14/2009 ( 9 moms have responded )
Hi everyone. I hate to have to meet you all this way. My name is Jenn, and I'm 24yrs old. I have 2 kids who are 3 &4 yrs old. 9 weeks ago I had to have d&e for a blighten ovum, that would not pass naturally. It took me 2 weeks to even decide to have the d&e. I was 12 weeks along when I had the procedure done. At first I was upset, and after a week I thought I was fine, but this past 2 weeks I am more upset about it then I ever thought I would be. I am complete hell to go anywhere with, and my husband doesn't know what to do to help me anymore. Any time I see a pregnant women or a baby, I loose it. I thought time would heal it, so I decided not to go to my doctors for depression meds, but it seems like the more time that goes by, the more I think about how big my belly would have been by now. I sit there thinking that I should have been finding out the sex of the baby this month. I am still trying to get rid of all the things I had already bought for the baby, because it is to hard to look at. What makes it even worse is that my best friend is also pregnant right now. We were due 6 weeks apart from each other.
So should this be getting better, and I am just a basket case, or is this grieving normal. This was my first miscarriage, and one of biggest fears all my life. Having this happen is what almost made me never want to have kids. Any help!