Christi - posted on 08/02/2009 ( 4 moms have responded )
Ok... my son died when he was 3 months old from meningitis we had no idea that he was even sick he had absolutely no symptoms at all we put him to bed and he was fine when we awoke again we found him lifeless in his crib... that was on August 26th, 2008 right at one year ago. Well now I am expecting a little girl whom is scheduled to be born on Sept. 30th and I am seriously terrified that I will go into labor or something will happen that will make me have to have her on either the day our son died or the day we buried him...I don't know why this thought is bothering me so much but it is all I can think about sometimes and I have also had recurrent dreams about it. Also I am scared to death that I will not allow myself to bond with her like I did with my first child or the child that we lost for fear that if I get to close to her that something will happen to her. I am terrified to bring her home from the hospital without some kind of breathing or heart monitor so I know that there will be an alarm that will go off should something happen. Is all of this normal?????