Andriana - posted on 09/30/2009 ( 3 moms have responded )
We had a doctor's appointment on Monday at 14 weeks, 3 days. We were so excited to hear the heartbeat that we brought my husband's daughter (my stepdaughter) to the appointment with us. We had had an ultrasound at 9 weeks, 2 days and everything looked great. We even saw our little baby move on the screen, and it's little heart beating.
The doctor tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler, and couldnt pick anything up. So we went into the ultrasound room, and sure enough the baby had no heartbeat, and was not sizing up to 14 weeks. Frighteningly though, my placenta also looked like swiss cheese. It has pockets of fluid, which my doctor was really concerned about.
Apparently we has what he called a partial mole pregnancy, where 2 sperm fertilize the same egg, and instead of creating twins, it creates an abnormal placenta with abnormal fetal tissue that has 64 chromosomes instead of 46. No matter what, the baby could not have lived outside of the womb. Basically we were told it was a genetic fluke, there was no one at fault, and nothing we could have done to prevent it.
We are so devestated. I have a D & C this morning, because the tissue of my placenta was deteriorating and had to be removed sooner than later. I woke up in tears, its such an empty feeling. We might have to wait a year before we can try again because of the added healthy risk to me with the abnormal cells and tissue that were in me.
Im just looking for some support, hopefully from someone who has experienced this. We were told it only occurs 1 out of 2000 pregnancies. Fortunately the chances of it happening again are really really slim. But Im just afraid of dealing with the grief throughout the upcoming year. Our baby looked perfect to us at 9 weeks, and it was heartwrenching to see it lifeless at 14 weeks. Even moreso to hear that our "perfect" baby was actually severely defected and we could have had to make a serious decision about terminating the pregnancy down the line.
Any support or help would be greatly appreciated. And god bless to all of you who have angel babies also.