Grace - posted on 12/07/2011 ( 5 moms have responded )
I miss the days where durring December we used to go out and visit with friends and family. The houses used to be so warm and snuggly and pretty. Everything was so beautiful. Now it's tripping over laundry, picking up laundry, doing dishes, cooking, listening to Hubby complain about money. All the warm mushiness is gone from this holiday. Now I am a stay at home mom until the end of January. I wish I could show my family the warmth of the season like when I was growing up. No matter how hard I try, the kids get yelled at, they cry, hubby stresses out, I am always doing housework. Ugh. I want to go back home but that home doesn't exist anymore (parents moved). Hitting a low point today. I have started some anti-depressants and they are working but today, not so much... I am so tired of feeling sorry for myself and for my husband. I want to enjoy the blessings that we have instead of focusing all the time on the stuff we don't.
Hubby just had two days off after working weeks straight. I had hoped to have some "couple time" with him but it's so hard when he's so stressed out. I keep hoping this will pass but it doesn't.
Also, I locked my keys in the car, was supposed to take my daughter to s/k today and pick up money on the way for pizza (we pay for 3monthes of pizza and milk at a time) and I couldn't do that. Silver lining - pizza money is due next week not today and I walked her to school. Yay. Couldn't keep the babies boots on - she keeps kicking them off, then cries because her feet are cold. Ugh.
I don't want to wish the holidays away but I kind of am... So instead I am going to tackle the laundry once and for all now that the baby is napping then I am going to go bake some sinfully sweet cookies and put the 10lbs back on that I recently lost and enjoy some gosh darn holiday spirit on my own damnit! Ok, thanks for the rant. I feel better now :)