Katie - posted on 09/29/2011 ( 9 moms have responded )
I am so tired....Like so so so tired. Tired to the point that it makes a mockery of all the other times in my life when I thought I couldn't get more exhausted.
My three month old doesn't sleep. He just would rather not, and if I have to hear one more person tell me to "keep him awake during the day" or "cluster feed him before bed" I think I will scream. Don't you think I have tried that, I've tried EVERYTHING. "Sleep when he sleeps" ohhhh I hate hearing that with a bloody passion. I have a toddler too and they never sleep at the same time, I swear they are having meetings at night so they can plan their attacks on me. As much as I get that the advice is meant to be helpful I would really rather not hear it. My almost 2 year old has a cold and has been waking up weeping every night for a week. His nose is always boogery and I HATE that. I live in northern bc and it is already starting to get cold, cold enough that my kids need toques and jackets when we go out. I barely know anyone up here and even though I make the effort and go to the play center and the parks and try to meet people I guess I am just not good at making friends. My husband works 5 10 hour days and an 8 hour day on sat every week. We are going to be up here for another whole winter (last year it got down to -40.) And most stressful of all, this morning I woke up with a nasty case of the dry heaves...I have only dealt with random dry heaving twice in my life. Once I was pregnant with otto, and the other time I was pregnant with myles....If my husband somehow managed to get me pregnant again through a condom, while I am breastfeeding and have no period during one of the 6 times we have done it sine my youngest was born I am gonna punch him in the head.
AHHHHH! That feels better. I do not have postpartum depression (had it with my oldest so I know what it feels like,) and I am genuinely happy with my family and my life....But I am so sleep deprived I feel like my brain is turning into mush. Feels a lot better to let it out and put it into the universe, lol. Now back to trying to convince a tiny man to blow his nose