Feeling guilty and alone

Danielle - posted on 10/10/2011 ( 1 mom has responded )

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I am a military wife...Husband is in National guard and is currently getting ready for deployment. I have so many feelings and I am not sure how to take them. First Hubby and I have been together for 3 years and he had just signed up for National guard before we got together. I was extremely supportive and was 100% dedicated to him while he was gone for boot camp. He proposed while at bootcamp over the phone and we married right after bootcamp. 4 days after we got married he was gone to finish his AIT (christmas time) 3 days later I found out he had been having multiple affairs while at bootcamp long text messages and phone calls in between speaking with me. Got this from a phone bill. I immediately filed for divorce and was crushed. Afer he returned I forgave him and we went to counseling. Life was fantastic and we got pregnant and had a baby girl last year. Now he is probably deploying to Iraq in January and I am feeling lost. I have all the normal emotions one might feel with the deployment of spouse however I have the incredible fear of him sleeping with other soldiers while deployed. I have read how easy it is to cheat when deployed and that soldiers cover up for each other. I have 4 children from past marriage and then a one year old. How do I deal with all these emotions? Please someone help me. I feel so angry at the military how do I stop these feelings.

Danielle

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Genevieve - posted on 10/11/2011

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Hi Danielle, wow that is a lot you are dealing with. I'm no counsellor but I think you need to separate how you feel about the military from how you feel about your husband. You need to work out if you trust him, love him and want to be with him first. Until you know the answer to those three questions you will continue to be lost. I wish you the very best. Being a military spouse is really trying but if your relationship is solid then it's not as hard to cope with the separation etc.