Danielle - posted on 10/10/2011 ( 1 mom has responded )
I am a military wife...Husband is in National guard and is currently getting ready for deployment. I have so many feelings and I am not sure how to take them. First Hubby and I have been together for 3 years and he had just signed up for National guard before we got together. I was extremely supportive and was 100% dedicated to him while he was gone for boot camp. He proposed while at bootcamp over the phone and we married right after bootcamp. 4 days after we got married he was gone to finish his AIT (christmas time) 3 days later I found out he had been having multiple affairs while at bootcamp long text messages and phone calls in between speaking with me. Got this from a phone bill. I immediately filed for divorce and was crushed. Afer he returned I forgave him and we went to counseling. Life was fantastic and we got pregnant and had a baby girl last year. Now he is probably deploying to Iraq in January and I am feeling lost. I have all the normal emotions one might feel with the deployment of spouse however I have the incredible fear of him sleeping with other soldiers while deployed. I have read how easy it is to cheat when deployed and that soldiers cover up for each other. I have 4 children from past marriage and then a one year old. How do I deal with all these emotions? Please someone help me. I feel so angry at the military how do I stop these feelings.