Maria - posted on 01/30/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )
I have a gay son who is 19 and I love him unconditionally, his brother who was straight died in a car accident about 4 years ago he was only 17 so he had no children yet. My only issue with my son being gay is the possibility of not being able to have grandchildren, we have endured a hurrendess loss and this just feels like another loss. My real concern though is for my surviving son, he is having anxiety and panic attacks about losing his brother and the stress of going from a child to an adult and I feel he is under enourmous pressure about being the only one left in our family to continue our family. All of this on top of living in a terribly cruel world where he feels judged harshly about being gay.
I really have not been able to come to grips with his sexuality and basically just have looked at it these past 5 years as that is his business, and I don't need to know. I feel I am wrong for dealing with it that way but have been in heavy grief.
I don't know if I really need advice or just needed to come to a place where there would be some measure of understanding for our situation.