Larissa - posted on 12/19/2009 ( 13 moms have responded )
Hello. 8 months ago I was 4 months pregnant when my husband had a seizure. This was his first seizure. After going to the hospital and having tests done and everything else our Dr. told us there was nothing wrong and sometimes people have just one seizure and never have another one. He said epilepsy is defined as having 2 or more seizures. We thought we were in the clear when all of a sudden last night he had another seizure. Thank God he wasn't holding our 3 month old son! But now I worry about him holding our baby or driving or even leaving him alone. We had talked that if he had another seizure (we had this talk after his 1st one) that if it lasted less than 5 minutes I would not call 911 and we would take care of it at home. Last night he had his seizure, it lasted 2 minutes, and I took care of him. But now I'm worried. Every noise he makes and every thing he does I'm watching him. This drains me!!! AND I have a 3 month old to take care of too, so I need to focus on him and my husband now. This is very difficult. We are going to have to go to the Dr. but we don't have insurance. Right now if something needs to be done outside of the home we all have to go, and I have to drive. Driving in the winter scared the heck out of me. I hate the fact I'll have to take my son out in the cold weather too. Even if we just need one thing from the store I can't send my husband (in fear of him having a seizure while he's driving) I can't leave him alone with the baby and I don't want to leave him alone period. I just want to know someone else out there is going through the same thing as me and is handling it just fine. Please someone tell me I'm not alone. I'm so worried I could pull my hair out. It feels almost like Im taking care of two children because now I watch him as much as my baby. He doesnt want my sympathy, and he feels bad for putting me through this, even though it is in no way his fault. Its so hard to see him go through this. I am so happy God has given me the ability to stay calm when it is happening though. I love my husband more than anything, and it kills me that this is happening to him. I would appreciate any support and any knowledge about epilepsy. Like if he gets on meds, will he be on them for life? How do we know where to go from here? UGH! I could cry, but Ive been doing that all day anyway so I need to relax for a second. Thanks for listening to me.