Kim - posted on 04/15/2009 ( 8 moms have responded )
On March, 26th I went into the ER because I was having some spotting and some pain in my back. I was almost 8 weeks pregnant, so they did an ultrasound to how the baby was doing. I was looking for the baby on the screen, but could not find it. Finally the doc came on an told me I had a tubal pregnancy. I was devastated! They rushed me into surgery and removed the baby and my right fallopian tube. the thing that makes it even harder is that I had a miscarriage last may (2008) and had been trying for 10 months to conceive this baby. I was on clomid because I was not ovulating and was so excited when it worked on the first round. It has been almost three weeks and I am still asking myself why me, why my baby? I have a 2 year old that I conceived while I was on birth control and now I cannot seem to have another baby. I just don't get why it happened so easily and now it just does not seem to happen for me. It does not help that my best friend and I were planning on having our babies together. I was 4 weeks ahead of her and 2 weeks behind my sister-in-law. I just hurt when I think they are going to have babies and I am not. I am so jealous! does this feeling ever go away!
also if this has happened to anyone, where you able to have more kids? does only one tube decrease your odds of getting pregnant? does anyone have a story that they would like to share, so I do not feel so alone? My husband does not seem to understand, I mean he is upset, but he says we should not worry about things that we cannot control, which is easy for him to say. He goes to work everyday and has other things to keep his mind busy. I am a stay at home mom, so I have plenty of time to think. I just hope that I am not getting depressed! that is all I would need!