Leanne - posted on 03/28/2009 ( 2 moms have responded )
Im leanne and this im my baby girl's story.
In 2007 i had my daughter neve and at 17 was pretty scared but i did it! Then i fount out i was expecting again and i was ok bout that as i have a great family and i fourt i was ready to do all this again. Every think was going fine had regular check ups and was doing what i had done with neve so not a momment crossed that i had fourt somethink could go wrong then on a 16th jan i went to the mid wife and everythink was fine with my baby. On the 19th was neves birthday. I woke up the day after feeling a bit sick but fourt nothink of it but as the day went on i got worse so went to the hospital where i was given the worse news ever my lil baby had no heartbeat ,my heart sunk and so did my boyfriends.
Then 23rd Jan i gave birth to Angel Bellett-Trimble.
After all the heartach we decided to give her funneral and on the 18th Feb we layed my lil girl to rest and even to this day i will never 4get my daughter but im finding it hard to even now deal with yes i have my family round me but its not the same as they dont understand the guilt,anger or even the pain. I find it hard sometimes to even look at neve as i wounder what if? why me? what if next time?
Hope it helps others and me to deal with all this.that has happend x