Brain Cancer killed my 9 year old daughter

Taliah - posted on 05/27/2009 ( 15 moms have responded )

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Words can't express how hard it is to watch your child die slowly from cancer. I never thought anything like this could ever happen to us but I was terribly wrong. I was always so careful with her never let her out of my sight, never left her with anyone but immediate family. I was over protective and turned out that her killer wasn't a sick pedophile or an accident her killer was in her own body! We found out in spring of 2008 after we took her to the doctor for headaches she was having. Turns out it was a tumor the size of a golf ball above her eye in her brain. My heart stops and I fell like the floor falls from underneath me. She goes for surgery a week later, 10 hours of surgery and I fell like my stomach is in my throat the entire time I can't breathe. Next Chemo...it seems we beat it then it comes back with vengeance and this time surgery can't help us. A year of chemo and radiation ravage her little body and I have no more tears to cry. She doesn't see them though; I smile for her knowing these could be our last moments. Praying harder then I have ever prayed in my life I become compulsive about it. I asked God to take my life for hers. I was completely helpless. Then she slipped into a coma and never woke up. On February 28th of this year at 4 pm she was taken off life support. I washed her frail body to prepare her for burial and said goodbye to her for the last time. All that's left of me is a shell. Half the time I'm mad as hell and the other half I'm desperately heartbroken. I still can't believe it and I don't think I ever will. I was suppose to see her grow up to be a beautiful young woman, have a family, have a career. Do great things for this world. So why did the lord take her?? What good has it done for anyone not to have her here? We are struggling to stay sane and functional for the rest of our families. There should be a cure for this so no one has to die like that!! She handled it with such grace and always had a positive outlook. She took her treatments without complaint. Handling better then any kid on her floor when most of the time she was doing the worst. I guess I needed to write to say to everyone here how much I love her and want her back with me. She was my first born and I can say she was loved as much as any child can be loved and still is. The only hope I have now is when I die to be with her again. Until then I will continue to live half the person I used to be. I can't be hurt anymore than I already have so I have no fear anymore. The worst has already happened to us.

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Joseph - posted on 11/20/2012

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Hi, Im a dad, but was feeling down about my son David. I hope its OK to reply eventhough Im a Dad and not a Mom. David died in 1994 its been a long time but still I have blue days, especially around the hollidays. All parents of sick children know the horror of what Taliah Fournier had to go through. I remember having a perfectly normal child for Christmas and just three months later being in the Hospital with my son, and learning that he had brain tumors. I still wake up in the middle of the night from dreams which are replays of difficult times during Davids illness. Its been 18 years, the pain is still there, some say you learn to live with it, I smile and agree on the outside, but on the inside I know that there are times that the pain is still unbearable. I hope theres a God, and I as many other parents, hope to see may son when I die. I still miss you Dave, hope your in heaven and at peace. Love Dad

Bridgette - posted on 03/31/2013

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First I would like to say I am sorry for your loss although that really does'nt help much I know, I too lost my son to cancer my son was 22 when he died he had sarcoma we took him to portland to have his surgery done than he went through chemo and radiation after. thinking it was gone 8 months later it came back with a vengeance this time on his pulmonary artery in which DR'S could not do anything about it except more radiation as it turned out the radiation burned a hole through his chest they could not repare it he passed away nov 15,2011 when he passed I have to say part of me died with him I will never feel whole again people ask me well dont you have other children? yes I do but why would that even matter? I too am no longer afraid like you said, I carry this hurt with me every day it is a pain that never heals. I just pray that when I die I will be with my son
bridgette

Lisa - posted on 05/28/2009

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I'm so sorry for your loss.

Nobody should have to suffer the loss of their child, especially in such a heartbreaking way. I know no words can take away your pain.

My thoughts are with you also.

Hollie - posted on 06/13/2009

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There aren't enough words to say how sorry I am for you and your family. I know this sounds horrible but as much as my heart is broke over losing my son and as many tears as I have and pain....I just don't know how I could handle it if he was any older than his 11 weeks. But I guess I could. I pray for your strength and comfort.

Becky - posted on 06/07/2009

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I am so sorry and in tears i could not read your whole post. No mother should have to go through the loss of a child. My thoughts are with you xxx

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Kathryn - posted on 04/26/2014

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i am so sorry. i am a child but at school we are walking around a track and donating money to people who have died from cancer and cancer survivors. so i can donate and sorta help towards her, what was you childs name? prayers sent to you.hopefully as soon as they can they find a cure for cancer.

Arnoldpaul - posted on 12/18/2013

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SAMANTHA - posted on 06/01/2009

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I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I COULDNT EVEN IMAGINE. I LOST MY THREE MONTH OLD TO SIDS. I JUST AM SO SORRY. IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO DO SO. IT IS THE ONLY THING THAT HAS EVER WORKED FOR ME.

Karen - posted on 05/28/2009

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Hi Taliah. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. There truly are no words that can console you at this time. Just know that all of us moms in this circle are here for you to rant to, to cry on, to share your feelings, and even to find out that all your feelings are very normal and common.



Sometimes just writing about your story, or your feelings helps you to sort them out, you have come to the right place for that. You are quite correct that the worse has already happened to you. I hope you come to find peace in your life. Time really does help ease the pain, but never completely takes it away, a part of you will always grieve for your lost child.

Davina - posted on 05/27/2009

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no mum should lose a child my best friend lost her 4 year old in the same way as you ,i also lost a full term baby at birth,she was my full support as i was also to her .nothing can make the pain go away but i found it helped to talk ,you must have so many memories good and bad by bad i mean treatment ops ect i remember watching my friend lose her girl but i could only amagine the pain, unless it happens to you its hard to fully understand i cant amagine seeing my child suffer i count myself lucking in one way that my son died straight away and i was at least spared that . my thoughts are with you

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