Does God give my son all he needs?

Mandy - posted on 11/21/2009 ( 7 moms have responded )

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well its been a year and a half since my precious boy was sent to be with god. it hurts so bad, knowing he will never have a first day of school, he will never have his first girlfriend, he will never have his first love, he will never marry, he will never have children, and I will never get to see him grow up! I always ask god why? why me? Why my baby? Was i not a good mommy to him, did I not deserve him? They say he is in a better place but what was so bad about his place on earth with his mommy? why take him so sudden, so tragic, so soon? Why give me no warning, no reason? I have so many unanswered questions that Ill never have answers too? I often wonder if god is holding him tight and giving him all he needs, does he get his favorite toys, his favorite foods, does god make penutbutter and jelly like his momma does? Does god make sure he cleans behind his ears in the bathtub, does god confort him when he skins his knees, does god have those cute little ice packs in heaven? I wonder if logan misses me, or ever wants to come home to me. The sweetest thing is when bug cries for only me and only i can make her better. Does Logan feel that too? Does he remember me, does he knkow I love him and miss him? How do I comfort my pain when it feels like a thousand knives are in my heart, how do i mend the piece of my heart that belongs to him?

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Minna - posted on 01/21/2013

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I haven't ever lost a child, but this post broke my heart.
I believe that heaven exists and all your children are taken care of perfectly by the only one who can love them even more than you do.
I don't think time exists in heaven ,so they are looking forward to being with you -not missing you -anymore than they would if you left them for a short time with a beloved grandparent.
Also I believe that no matter how many years go by , the instant you die ,you will be reunited and your hearts will recognize each other immediately..And it will be so wonderful that we can't begin to imagine it here on earth.,
This is truly what I believe- if it can comfort anyone even a tiny bit, I'll feel blessed. Minna

Jennifer - posted on 08/13/2012

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All I can think of is how people say that our kids are only loaned to us, and those of them that get to be in the glory of God sooner than others they say were just too special to be here. It isn't that comforting but then again at times it is. God knows why our babies go to heaven and never get to enjoy the beautiful things in life, but just remember that God chose you to be the mommy of his angel...

Olga - posted on 11/24/2009

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lost my son Angel 1 year ago and i think the same thing, he was 4 yrs old and i will never see him grow up. i want to believe that he is happy because the taught of him feeling sad and lonely kills me, it makes me want to go with him. i also want to think that once you die its all over just so it doesnt hurt to think that he misses me. i have days that i feel im going crazy and the more i try to find answers the worste i feel, i wish i can tell u that things get better but they dont... stay strong........

Kimberly - posted on 11/23/2009

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I understand where you are coming from I asked myself those questions everyday. I am sorry for you loss. I loss my little boy it will be 9 months on Wednesday. I have a friend that has a little boy 5 weeks older than my little boy and everything he does I think about what my baby would be doing. I know do believe they are being to care of and We will never know why they was taking from us. I am sorry if this doesn't help. I guess does really answer anything.

Penny - posted on 11/22/2009

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Mandy I feel your pain. I have asked those same questions too! I lost my son when he was 16 years old to a motorcycle accident. While it has been a little over 5 years ago, I ache to hug him to hear him say he loves me. The only thing that helps me is too pray to God to give me strength and to understand. It helps at times and then sometimes I have to just surrender my pain over to God. I am not a perfect Christian in no way shape or form but I believe in God and Jesus and I know my son is our angel now and watches out over us. We had a house fire about 5 months after he died. It was a kitchen fire and it almost completely destroyed our house. I have some things left of his but I lost my son's smell that I would smell when I went in his room. After gutting out the house and starting to rebuild a electrician came to rewire a few things that were burned through. He said if we wouldn't have had that fire we would have probably had a wall fire in the middle of the night and lost all of us because of the wiring. I truly believe that Robert was the one that had that fire so that those wires were found. That is how I know he is an angel. There are lots of good books out there too to help with some of the pain. I have read a lot of different things to help. The main thing that I do is just pray to God and ask for his help. God is good and he will answer your prayers in some way but sometimes we don't see them. I see my son with my family members that are in heaven. I see them joking with him and walking with them and having a good time. I know that there are so many angels and souls in heaven helping God take care of your son! If you ever need someone to talk to or yell at (seriously) you can contact me at anytime! Here is my email pennymccoy@centurytel.net . I hope even one part of this helps you! It takes a lot of time they say and I can't tell you how long it takes because I am only at 5 years of losing my baby boy and it still feels like yesterday sometimes!

Jessica - posted on 11/22/2009

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hi mandy,
i lost my daughter at 26wks and i understand where you are coming from. i believe god may have taken ur babies so earlier, so fast because he was trying to save us from even more heart ache. its poss that if they where born that they may have died yrs later, poss horrible deaths that would of killed us inside and been more painful for them. god is loving all the children that are with him and they will continue to check in on us from time to time. any time something random happens to you, good, its logan trying to make you smile.
-take care-

Michele - posted on 11/21/2009

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Hi I lost my little girl 13Years ago when she was two months old, An older lady told me this and I will pass it to u it did not take my pain away but it eased my why was I not good enough to have her here with me I will share it with u and hope one day it will ease your judgement on yourself....God has a heaven full of Angels and a Heaven full of souls and now and again he is faced with an angel who wishes to feel what it feels like to be a soul, But as most believe there is no way an angel can be a soul so God takes his angel into his arms and he looks upon us to find the one that will hold that angel in her arms a mother who will keep it safe and warm and he choses her that very special someone, theres a catch how does and angel feel like a soul and still be an angel he has to take that angel home as a baby. He chose me he chose you not because we were not good enough but because we were good enough to carry his precious cargo here and keep it safe till that angel was to go home. I have my gardian angel and I got to meet her...God Bless