User - posted on 10/01/2010 ( 1 mom has responded )
Two years ago, in July of 2008, my 3 month-old daughter, Emma, died unexpectedly from complications from her heart defects. We were in the car on our way to a regular check-up with the cardiology clinic. Even though she had a complicated heart defect, called HLHS, she made it well through her first open heart surgery and was expected to live much longer. Well, needless to say, it has been a rough couple of years. Now, in July of this year, I had a little boy who is healthy and is already 2 and a half months old. I also have a healthy 5 year-old daughter.
I currently find myself feeling huge grief as my son is now cooing, smiling, and doing the same things my daughter Emma did when we enjoyed her the most, during the last month of her life. I have trouble dealing with this grief, and, though very happy that my son is healthy and developing normally, I miss all these same stages and milestones from my daughter Emma. The two of them look so much alike also...
I would love to hear from other moms who have gone/are going through the same thing, with vividly remembering going through the same stages with the deceased child and all the feelings that all of that brings... How did you feel? What helped you honor your deceased child's life?