Libby - posted on 02/11/2009 ( 49 moms have responded )
Man, am I moody. Maybe it's female hormones, guess I'll find out in a day or two. But I went to my doctor yesterday to get some test results I had been waiting on from my specialist for over two weeks. I was getting very stressed out about that and I thought once I got the results I would feel better. But actually yesterday was once of the worst days I've had in awhile. The test results were fine. There is nothing wrong with me. Which is good, but that means I don't have any more answers as to why my daughter died in December. We're also getting some work done to the house and my husband talked to the guy yesterday and seemed to make all the arrangements without consulting me first. And from that point on I just felt cranky. Then I got online last night and saw on my friend's facebook that she is having a girl. Then this morning she posted a picture of the 1st dress she bought her baby. I never got to buy my daughter anything because I was on bedrest for a good portion of my pregnancy (which only made it to 5 months). I felt angry. I'm happy for her but I just had a bunch of angry thoughts. Thoughts that I'm ashamed of. What's going on with me?