Veronique - posted on 06/17/2012 ( 19 moms have responded )
My daughter was born prematurely at 26weeks, my miracle baby weigh 750g. She stayed in NICU for 3months and I thought she is out of danger until I had to rush her to hospital after a month and 2 weeks at home. I'm so hurt and confussed because she was my strong baby, even doctors says so. I have so many questions to ask God, she made her survive for her first scary and difficult time and when I though we have won and celebrate He took her away from me. She is my first child and now I have nothing. I don't know if I can survive this, I dnt have strength to talk to friends because pity and many sorries I dnt want to hear because they won't bring her back, no body understand. I feel like my whole life has shut down in front of my face. How do I pass this?? Its a week now and have visited her grave twice but I feel like going there everyday because I don't want to leave her alone. This tragedy has made me weak, I can't even finish a prayer because of the anger in me. I feel like I have failed my daughter, wish I can be with her and protect her. I dnt think I can ever get through this, its painful.