Kris - posted on 07/20/2009 ( 6 moms have responded )
Hi, I'm new on this community. I have been trying to cope with the death of my sweet boy. He was 23 when he crossed the yellow line and crashed head on with a gas tanker. They told us he was killed instantly and didn't feel any pain. This is the first time since his death that I have acknowledged that he is dead. I miss him so much! There is such a hole in my heart....one that will never heal. The worst thing is that his wife had him cremated, so I don't have any place to visit with him. I know I really don't have to have a place as he will always be in my heart, but I really need it. What we do do is visit the accident site each year on his birthday, the date he died and Christmas since that was his favorite holiday. We have 2 other sons, 24 & 22. My middle son is having a really hard time dealing with Scott's death. He lost not only his brother, but his best friend. They were always together. My husband and I have been each others support, but I think the only thing that is keeping me going are my boys and my faith. There for awhile my faith teetered, but I found my way back. There are good days and bad days eventhough its been 3 years 5 months. I still have not accepted it and am still greiving, but it is getting easier to wake up each morning.
I will always miss and love my Sweet Boy, Scott. Rest in peace my Sweet, Sweet Boy!