Mimmy - posted on 01/08/2009 ( 196 moms have responded )
I know this is a very sensitive subject. But I want to know if anyone went through the same thing I'm going through.... Ever since our son Alex died, I have no faith and I'm very angry at God. I can't understand how supposedly a loving Father can put anyone through what we've been through.... Don't tell me he was here for a reason, it does not make any sense to me! He was here for 3 days and my life has been hell ever since he died.
Please do not reply and try to "convert" me as I do not want to hear "he was here for a reason" again - I heard it too many times. It has been 4 and a half years since Alex died and I'm still in pain everyday. I can look at the "half full glass" because I do have 2 beautiful and healthy children but my glass gets "half empty" pretty often. I wonder everyday what Alex would look like, I wonder every time even when my 2 kids fight if Alex would be fighting with them or not. How would he do in school..... I'm sad and angry and I just want to know "why me"...