Felicia Neikolle - posted on 11/18/2009 ( 11 moms have responded )
It was an ectopic pregnancy and they took my tube and the baby. I once saw a movie where a woman went to sleep pregnant and woke up not and thought that would be the worst feeling to ever experience. I was wrong. The worst feeling to experience is to wake up to the nurses telling you that it had turned out to be an ectopic pregnancy and they had taken the baby AND my tube. I am very thankful for a loving and supportive husband and the wonderful and beautiful children we have ... but this comes after 4 miscarriages and this pregnancy being the first to show signs of being able to last. We don't have any together (living that is) and really wanted this to work out. I feel so incomplete. This is by far the worst pain I've ever felt in my whole life - even worse than the miscarriage I had at 19 weeks. I'm sitting here alone and wishing the pain in my belly would stop ... not b/c I can't handle the pain ... b/c if it would stop I may be able to ignore the fact that I'm not pregnant any more. I don't understand what I did to deserve all this. I know that statement has nothing to do with what's going on with me but it's how I feel. I can't help it. I've tried not feeling that way but they are just one after the next and now this ... I feel like I'm less of a woman now too since they took the tube. I know that's not actual either but still feel that way. Any way ... thanks for listening ... hoping to get through this ... just don't know how right now.