Shannon - posted on 03/03/2009 ( 1 mom has responded )
I have a 3.5 yr. old son and a 9 mo. old daughter and still nursing my daughter. I had no idea I was pregnant again. I was spotting and had some cramping, but thought it was hypothyroidism (my mom and 2 sisters have it and besides the spotting I had all the symptoms). My husband and I were excited, but one day after I found out about the pregnancy I had such bad cramping I was crying. That was Thursday, February 19, 2009.
Later that night I was in the ER going through a laparoscopy surgery. My fallopian tube actually ruptured about 2 weeks prior but started adhering to my belly. It could have been more life threatening than it was, but I thank the good Lord that everything came out alright.
I have a very strong faith and I believe that everything happens for a reason. I did not or will not ever question "why" or "why me" to the Lord. Sometimes we do not get answers to events that happen in our life and sometimes we get them down the road. I believe events like this make us a stronger, better person.
I lost my fallopian tube. I still have my other one and I am taking 1 day at a time! I have a husband, 2 kids, dogs and a house that need me. The Lord gives me my strength every day to get up and face the new day. I am very thankful for that. Would I like to see my family grew? Of course, but if all my husband and I have are Zach and Emma, I am happy with that too.
Oh by the way, I have been pregnant 4 times and only have 2 kids. I had a early, early miscarriage between Zach and Emma (maybe 4-5 weeks along). All of this has made me trust in the Lord completely.
I am not writing one thing and feeling another. I would love to get pregnant again and hopefully with the Lord's help I will. My heart goes out to every woman who has lost a pregnancy or child. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.