Erin - posted on 11/29/2011 ( 3 moms have responded )
I lost my baby when I was 18 weeks pregnant and found out there was no heartbeat. I honored my baby boy with a funeral and everything. Even though he was born still, he was and always will be a part of our family.
Since this devastating news, I've had to switch jobs (not voluntarily . . . I'm a teacher, and I got involuntarily moved to a new school). At this new school, it seems like EVERYONE is pregnant. It is like a giant slap in the face. Especially, since no one knows what we went through earlier this year (September 2011). It seems like every time I blink, someone else I know is pregnant.
I want to be happy for them all, but I'm still so upset that this happened to me and my family. I so want to be pregnant and fear that it won't happen as quickly as it has in the past (I got pregnant with my daughter--who's 2 after the 2nd month of trying and pregnant with my angel son on the first try). I just wish that I was pregnant too so that I could share in the joy that so many others are feeling. I'm struggling with why this happened to us. Does anyone else feel this way? Does anyone have suggestions as to how to get through it?