Brandy - posted on 12/24/2009 ( 27 moms have responded )
Today is Christmas Eve. It has been 3 weeks since we had our 2nd miscarriage. The doctors office called me this morning telling me that my lab work came back and I have the 2 mutations of MTHFR. So if and when we are pregnant again, I will need high dose folic acid (which I've been doing) and Lovenox. At least I have a reason now. That's understandable. However, we left to visit family for Christmas. I get there and everything is going good. My heart pounds when my sister-in-law walks in the door 30 weeks pregnant (yes I knew) but this pregnancy happened within weeks after our family found out she had had an affair. Then she immediately begins complaining on how misreable her pregnancy is. Blah, Blah, Blah. Yes ladies, I have been pregnant. before & have a 2 1/2 year old beautiful daughter. I knew it was not going to be grins and giggle. It causes discomfort, pain, and lots more. But yet, I enjoyed it because I was thankful to be pregnant. Then at the end of the evening my FIL which is a preacher begins to throw in the Religion card to the conversation and tell me and my husband that we need to attend church and that God can heal me of my MTHFR and such. I am not saying this is wrong. But right now, I guess you can say I am kinda angry and confused with God and the decisions he's made. Why he can give others a wonderful successful pregnancy who doesn't want a child or maybe a little less deserving and not me. My make my living for caring for other families infants. Why should mine be taken from me? Have any of you been angry for the same reasons? I do understand I may need to attend church and things of that nature. That's not my question though. But of all days, my family decided to pressure my husband & I about it when I am already questioning God's decisions. Have any of you?